Why wait any longer?
I created this page last year when Orissa left for her world-midwifery-mission-adventure, and I thought I would keep track of my daily-back-home-living-life-adventures; but I never even started!
Why? Why the procrastination?
Why the desire but no fire?
IT seems to be a constant theme in my life, that I think about things so much I almost think I am DOING something just thinking about it! How crazy is that?
The reality is that I am approaching 45 and realizing that there are a million
(that may be a slight exaggeration, OK, a million plus or minus "1")
THINGS I have wanted to do with my life and I have only thought about "how cool it would be to do this or that" when in reality I need to just start DOING it!
So today is the day I am starting my blog!
Imperfections and all... not really knowing what I'm doing or how to fully use this thing; seeing others' blogs in all their 'coolness" and knowing I don't even know how to DO that... with all that in my mind, and not letting my need for perfection stop me any longer- I am starting!
And not just my BLOG mind you, I am starting ALL KINDS OF THINGS!
Time for the thinker and dreamer to become the doer and achiever!
I hear myself encouraging my children "you can DO anything- just START doing it, take the first steps, and let the Lord lead you, let Him direct your paths, but start walking on the path- you've got to take the first steps; don't let fears, and lack of experience stop you- or you'll never do anything!" Well my girls, fortunately listen to me and they DO THINGS! And it occurred to me, why don't I listen to me? I have all kinds of dreams and desires and hopes and interests and passions and goals-- and things I want to do, to learn, to BE! So I am taking the first step, a little blindly, a little wobbly, a little unsure of what I am doing- ok--- well, a lot unsure of what I am doing- but I have lots of 'cool' blogger friends and they can help me perfect this as I go along, right? If I wait until I can make this the best blog ever before I start, I'll never start! Which is why a year ago I named it "Here&Now" because I knew I just needed to be here and do the things NOW that are in front of me to do and stop making excuses.
So this year, 2011, I am making more steps than a blog start, I am making steps towards achieving ALL my goals! To start living and doing the things I have always wanted to do!- to keep learning and growing and dreaming!
So watch out, because today is not only a good day to start a blog,
it's actually a good day to start living!
I created this page last year when Orissa left for her world-midwifery-mission-adventure, and I thought I would keep track of my daily-back-home-living-life-adventures; but I never even started!
Why? Why the procrastination?
Why the desire but no fire?
IT seems to be a constant theme in my life, that I think about things so much I almost think I am DOING something just thinking about it! How crazy is that?
The reality is that I am approaching 45 and realizing that there are a million
(that may be a slight exaggeration, OK, a million plus or minus "1")
THINGS I have wanted to do with my life and I have only thought about "how cool it would be to do this or that" when in reality I need to just start DOING it!
So today is the day I am starting my blog!
Imperfections and all... not really knowing what I'm doing or how to fully use this thing; seeing others' blogs in all their 'coolness" and knowing I don't even know how to DO that... with all that in my mind, and not letting my need for perfection stop me any longer- I am starting!
And not just my BLOG mind you, I am starting ALL KINDS OF THINGS!
Time for the thinker and dreamer to become the doer and achiever!
I hear myself encouraging my children "you can DO anything- just START doing it, take the first steps, and let the Lord lead you, let Him direct your paths, but start walking on the path- you've got to take the first steps; don't let fears, and lack of experience stop you- or you'll never do anything!" Well my girls, fortunately listen to me and they DO THINGS! And it occurred to me, why don't I listen to me? I have all kinds of dreams and desires and hopes and interests and passions and goals-- and things I want to do, to learn, to BE! So I am taking the first step, a little blindly, a little wobbly, a little unsure of what I am doing- ok--- well, a lot unsure of what I am doing- but I have lots of 'cool' blogger friends and they can help me perfect this as I go along, right? If I wait until I can make this the best blog ever before I start, I'll never start! Which is why a year ago I named it "Here&Now" because I knew I just needed to be here and do the things NOW that are in front of me to do and stop making excuses.
So this year, 2011, I am making more steps than a blog start, I am making steps towards achieving ALL my goals! To start living and doing the things I have always wanted to do!- to keep learning and growing and dreaming!
So watch out, because today is not only a good day to start a blog,
it's actually a good day to start living!
Yesterday I started my "training" for my dream of hiking the Appalachian trail.
Tom, my husband, said If I was really serious, I would start walking with a weighted backpack. So he so graciously made me a packed army backpack about 6 months ago which has sat on our bedroom floor staring at me, mockingly! But hey "it's been winter, and I don't plan on hiking in winter, right?"
Ok so it was a beautiful day yesterday and I took that ol backpack and went walking- who's micking who now?! Ok just small steps I know, but they're STEPS! 2 miles of them! I know I gotta do more- and I really have to get in shape to accomplish this dream, but it doesn't happen if I don't START!Tom, my husband, said If I was really serious, I would start walking with a weighted backpack. So he so graciously made me a packed army backpack about 6 months ago which has sat on our bedroom floor staring at me, mockingly! But hey "it's been winter, and I don't plan on hiking in winter, right?"
Today I called and made an appointment with someone I met online A YEAR AGO about learning sewing lessons! (Are yous seeing a pattern here?) Ok, so a year later- I am calling and making an appointment- I'm gonna start!! I'm gonna learn! Monday at 2PM! Cool!
This is so cool-- really getting things going!
A little scary- why? I don't know--- new un-chartered territory?
No longer just a thought?
I'm also sooo excited!
I'm gonna really learn to sew and understand my sewing machine!
My grandmother grew up sewing all her clothes- I;m talking lined suits, knitted and crocheted all her sweaters- and she taught my mom all these things as well, in fact she made all her own clothes until she was 16 and got her first job! I remember my mom sewing, but she really liked 'store-bought' clothes, and we never learned the trade. I've ALWAYS wanted to know- to really be good at it like my mom and grandmother were!
SO why did I wait so long? I don't know- but I know something in me is changing- I am going to do it- HERE & NOW!
I am also studying herbs again- and I really want to know so much MORE! I want to make soaps, and salves, and body products and also to learn wild foraging! I have touched on these things in the past, but have not kept up learning them. But it's a new day!
I want to be a midwife- I have wanted to do that for 20 years now!! But many things in life seemed to have been barriers- but NOW I realize that I, too, can start toward that dream! I have found an online school that I can do! How cool! And she's a Christian too, and an old "Farm" hippie! So I am working on starting that soon! And one day maybe I'll have a midwifery retreat center!
Oh the dreams I dream!
I have always had so many more ideas and "want to's" than I felt I had time "to do"- and so I think I let my exhaustive brain keep me from actually doing anything.
Wanting to do everything at once, so doing nothing at all-
well that's not really true- I actually DO stuff everyday! I home educate and we also meet with Christian in the home (home church), and I have friends and housecleaning and cooking and all that stuff!
I have very active mission-minded and gypsy traveling daughters (ages 20 and almost 17) and a sweet lil 7 year old at home. And I want MORE children! I wish I had a house full! I do have the blessing of having a foreign exchange student this year- 16 year old Chinese student living with us. Good cultural experience!
I am learning to garden, and I am talking with a friend about starting guitar lessons!
Wow, as I write this, I'm almost thinking that I really do want to do too much!
Oh well- what is life and time for?
No time for fear or excuses anymore!
If I am ever gonna live off the land and be self-sufficient and know all the things I want to know and do all the things I want to do before I die, then I better get started! Today is as good a day as any to just GET STARTED!
This is so cool-- really getting things going!
A little scary- why? I don't know--- new un-chartered territory?
No longer just a thought?
I'm also sooo excited!
I'm gonna really learn to sew and understand my sewing machine!
My grandmother grew up sewing all her clothes- I;m talking lined suits, knitted and crocheted all her sweaters- and she taught my mom all these things as well, in fact she made all her own clothes until she was 16 and got her first job! I remember my mom sewing, but she really liked 'store-bought' clothes, and we never learned the trade. I've ALWAYS wanted to know- to really be good at it like my mom and grandmother were!
SO why did I wait so long? I don't know- but I know something in me is changing- I am going to do it- HERE & NOW!
I am also studying herbs again- and I really want to know so much MORE! I want to make soaps, and salves, and body products and also to learn wild foraging! I have touched on these things in the past, but have not kept up learning them. But it's a new day!
I want to be a midwife- I have wanted to do that for 20 years now!! But many things in life seemed to have been barriers- but NOW I realize that I, too, can start toward that dream! I have found an online school that I can do! How cool! And she's a Christian too, and an old "Farm" hippie! So I am working on starting that soon! And one day maybe I'll have a midwifery retreat center!
Oh the dreams I dream!
I have always had so many more ideas and "want to's" than I felt I had time "to do"- and so I think I let my exhaustive brain keep me from actually doing anything.
Wanting to do everything at once, so doing nothing at all-
well that's not really true- I actually DO stuff everyday! I home educate and we also meet with Christian in the home (home church), and I have friends and housecleaning and cooking and all that stuff!
I have very active mission-minded and gypsy traveling daughters (ages 20 and almost 17) and a sweet lil 7 year old at home. And I want MORE children! I wish I had a house full! I do have the blessing of having a foreign exchange student this year- 16 year old Chinese student living with us. Good cultural experience!
I am learning to garden, and I am talking with a friend about starting guitar lessons!
Wow, as I write this, I'm almost thinking that I really do want to do too much!
Oh well- what is life and time for?
No time for fear or excuses anymore!
If I am ever gonna live off the land and be self-sufficient and know all the things I want to know and do all the things I want to do before I die, then I better get started! Today is as good a day as any to just GET STARTED!
